I also recently had a friend help me get my cell phone pics onto the computer! I had some dating back to March 2010. It was neat seeing them in the bigger version on the computer and finally having copies of them saved. It was like finding buried treasure, I love getting new pics of Tyler especially. I had this one on there, from the day we were admitted, April 25th, 2011. Gabriel and Tyler were so close, they nursed together, shared my lap most of the day. I hate that Gabriel has to grow up not knowing his brother. They would've been so close.
This was Dawson, a few months before he turned 3. So little!
It's so sweet and sad looking back on those pics. Realizing again that Gabriel grew up so fast and that I never really had time to just sit around at home and enjoy him. We were at the hospital since he was just a few weeks old and didn't come home until he was 7 months old. It was the same with Tyler, 4 months until 9 months. I feel a bit ripped off, honestly! Dawson was horribly colicky, so he wasn't a cuddly calm baby that I could just sit around with. Thankfully I have a couple of friends with babies and it's so nice just sitting and holding babies, but it's hard knowing that I missed out on so much with my own.
Also having a hard time lately with just the fact that Tyler suffered nearly his whole life only to die at the end. I just don't get it. Trying to understand what purpose that could've held, and why a sweet boy had to suffer so much pain. At least he will never suffer again. I try to hold onto that thought instead.